Monday, September 29, 2008

50 Questions

Thought it would be fun for y'all to learn a little bit about me goes nothing!!

50 questions to pass the time

1. Are you wearing a hat? No

2. Bottled water: yes or no? Prefered

3. Do you have a crush on someone right now? Yes

4. What kind of laptop do you have? Cheap one

5. Do you prefer writing in pen or pencil? Pen

6. Who was the last text message in your phone from? My mother =(

7. What’s your favorite season? Fall

8. Does your best friend have a boyfriend or girlfriend? No, he has a wife

9. Do you like them? I should hope so

10. Favorite radio station? 101.7

11. Type your name into Google. What’s the first link that pops up? A bunch of letters

12. What’s your favorite song at the moment? Rock a bye baby

13. Coke or Pepsi? Neither

14. Favorite subject in school? Law

15. Last concert? Charlie Daniels Band

16. Next concert? A free one

17. Last magazine you bought? Creative Knitting

18. Last book you read? Marley and Me

19. Do you prefer cats or dogs? Which ever doesn't piss on my carpet

20. Is there someone you want to punch right now? Yes

21. Favorite sports team? STEELERS BABY

22. State you most want to visit? ALASKA

23. Are you a MySpace addict? NO

24. When do you shower? EVERYDAY, SOMETIMES 2X


26. What kind of car do you drive? TOWN AND COUNTRY, TAURUS

27. What word in the dictionary best describes you? BITCHY

28. What’s your blog address? UM, IF YOU ARE READING THIS......

29. Worst TV show at the moment? ANYTHING ON VH1 OR MTV

30. Are you a better talker or better listener? LISTENER

31. Do you care about who wins the election? YOU BETCHA

32. Who was the most popular kid in your 7th grade class? MARLEY

33. Are you afraid of ghosts? YES

34. Is there something lacking in your life right now? YES

35. What do you miss most about childhood? MY GRANDPARENTS

36. How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test? ONCE

37. How many kids do you want? THEY ONES I ALREADY HAVE, AND THATS PUSHING IT =)

38. Are you a good liar? NO

39. Can you cook? YES

40. Are you a cheapskate? THRIFTY

41. What would you do with a million dollars? BUY OODLES OF YARN....AND PAY OFF DEBT WITH WHAT WAS LEFT

42. Have you been to Disney World? NO

43. How much time do you spend online a week? TOO MUCH

44. Last time you went bowling? YEAR AGO

45. Hot or cold weather? COLD

46. How many pairs of shoes do you have? 15

47. Are you a shop-a-holic? ASK MY HUSBAND....

48. Where were you yesterday morning at 10:30? SLEEPING IN

49. Are you afraid of the dentist? IM AFRAID OF THE BILL

50. Were you bored or entertained by this survey? NEITHER

If you'd like to share some of your own answers...that would be awesome.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Leave a message....


Emily would love to post a blog right now, but she is too busy bailing out Corporate America. After she is finished, she would be more than happy to explain why this is NOT a good thing...Please leave a message at the sound of her children crying because she told them she can not afford to send them to college.

Thank you.

Monday, September 22, 2008

On a more serious note....

  • a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity
  • sad feelings of gloom and inadequacy

  • Those of you who know me know that I have suffered from depression for quite some time. I don't usually like to talk about it, especially in a forum where thousands (ok, a few) people may read it but I am hoping that this will help me in my recovery and hopefully get some positive feedback and hear some "success stories" that will help me understand that yes, I can recover from this.

    I think that I have always suffered from depression in one form or another for most of my adult life. I remember during my later years in high school, my doctor put me on Zoloft. That was when all you had to do was tell someone you were sad sometimes and *POOF* they wrote you a script for a medicine that made you sleepy and feel like a zombie, but hey, you weren't depressed anymore....just slept 15 hours a day and woke with cotton mouth. It didn't take me long to stop taking that. Now, I take Cymbalta. I am not sure if it is helping or not. Like I keep telling those close to me, yes, the meds to help a little but they don't change my life situation...just make me look at it through foggier glasses. I saw a shrink for awhile, and I suppose that the conversation helped a bit (lonliness is a HUGE trigger for me) but he didn't really help me learn any coping skills or ways of dealing with my emotions.

    So, I have decided that I am going to treat this "thing" my own way. Naturally. I found a GREAT website, ZenHabits, that makes SOOOO much sense to me. No drugs. No weird voodoo priest worshiping, just lessons on how to live your life better and easier. His first suggestion is to quit smoking. Now. I have been smoking for around 14 years. It has gotten me through alot. I am also asthmatic. Yes, I know. The two do not mix so please spare me the lectures. BUT, I am reasonable enough to know that smoking will kill me. My husband and I have talked about quitting since I got pregnant with my son and here I am, smoking while I type this. I think that I am in a good point in my life to quit. (I can NOT believe that I just said that...) I am looking at this whole zen thing as a fresh start. A SMOKE FREE start. I feel as though I need to accomplish something for one else. I think that quitting smoking is it. (Please pray for my husband while I am in the process of quitting...he is going to need all of the divine support he can muster). If anyone has any suggestions that may help in this process, please let me know BUT I refuse to take any meds to do it....they kill you too.

    Well, enough of all that happy horse shit and on to something FUN to talk about...KNITTING!!!
    I am working on a February Lady Sweater as a gift for someone.

    I am not overly crazy about the yarn I chose to use, but it is all I had enough of as I am STILL on a husband-enforced yarn diet. No, dear, I am not mad, I'm just sayin.....

    I am hoping to begin my Christmas knitting soon. In the process of looking for the perfect gifts for all of those whom I love enough to knit for.

    In closing, I would just like to share a picture with you....

    THIS is why I want to get better. Any ideas?

    Friday, September 5, 2008

    My Hanna Worries

    Ok. So, right now, we are experiencing the beginnings of Tropical Storm Hanna. It's raining like a mother. The wind is howling. The possibility of losing electric is very high. Am I worried about not having the TV to watch? Nope. Am I worried that the babies milk will go bad and the juice go warm? Nope. Am I worried that the meat will thaw and spoil? Not in the least. Am I worried that the wine will not be chilled? Sort of (just must drink it faster). So, if I am not worried about any of those things...what is my main concern???


    Yup. That is my number one concern. Hands down. I am trying to stay calm and collected. Keep a level head, ya know? Gotta think of something and FAST, just in case. Ok. I can send my husband to my local Starbucks to get me a double venti vanilla latte. JINKIES!!!!! If I don't have electricity, chances are, they don't either. *sigh* Now what??? What if we don't have electricity for a few days? What if the water is tainted and we can't make coffee for WEEKS????? OH DEAR LORD!!! WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS BEFORE WE MOVED DOWN HERE!!!!! WE NEVER LOST POWER UP HOME AND IF WE DID, IT WAS ONLY FOR A FEW HOURS AND ONLY IN HALF THE TOWN SO A RIDE TO SHEETZ SOLVED THE PROBLEM!!!!!

    Sorry. Got excited. Off to chew several java beans, finish off the 3 bottles of wine and pray for wakeless sleep till the storm has passed and the electricity returns. I mean, if the power goes off at all. Guess I got ahead of myself.